Barenaked Ladies

When I was in high school, I was your ordinary post-emo-not knowing-what-I-am gal, from the occasional complete change in wardrobe, to new hair every other month, etc. And just like any typical HS girl, I was never seen without makeup HA. I probably slept in it so if anyone came in my room at night they would totally be convinced my skin was perfect (okay not really but). I was never to leave my house until I had completed my morning routine: moisturizer, concealer, base, powder, and of course can’t forget the eye shadow, eyeliner, and mascara. I was ashamed, for whatever reason, of my bare naked face. Like my reddish cheeks and occasional pimples would send me to be stoned behind the school by the other 600+ 14 – 18 year olds who didn’t have any acne, ever.

But then, I was legitimately super paranoid that a day of no makeup would somehow make my friends not be my friends anymore. I just thought makeup was what I was “supposed” to do, just like buying the TOMS shoes (which I actually love btw), and those wool head wraps girls wear in the winter. I felt that if I didn’t have these things like the other girls I would look poor in the fashion sense.

There were, however, some trends I never caught onto. Like the automatic love for baseball once the season arrived or the same love for the players of our varsity team. I just couldn’t wrap my head around what was so sexy about the fellows who dipped in class and started food fights at lunchtime.

When I got to college, it was like a new breed surrounded me. Granted, half the people at my tiny community college were from my hometown, but it seemed as though mostly everyone there was different. There’s not one standard in which to go by here?! Everyone can do their own thing and not get strange looks for it?! Wow, imagine that. Not saying it was perfect, I mean of course there will be those people who always look at you as if saying “What the hell are you wearing girl…” but I had finally learned to ignore that or give those people an extra big smile as I walk passed them in the lunch room sporting my fanny pack. Yes, I wore a fanny pack and you know what? I rocked it, big glasses too. There was no stopping this new, confident Kayla.

It just really saddens me that I thought I would stick out like a sore thumb if I didn’t look like everyone else. I wish I had someone tell me to screw all them and do my own thing. But now I can be a good example to people who are like I used to be.  I still wear makeup sometimes but it’s because Kayla wants to, not because Kayla has to.

I will admit, I still have some things I struggle with when it comes to confidence, but pretty much everyone who I still talk to that I went to high school with has told me I have broken out of my shell so much. And I love it when people say that! Everyday I am evolving into this young lady who will eventually be unstoppable.

I no longer hold myself to the standards of others- I am my own person. Who makes the rules anyway? Me. For myself. Just like you make the rules in your own life. I can honestly say feeling confident about sporting my naked face in public is really something that has taken me years to accomplish. Isn’t it sick how society can distort the mind of today’s youth? I know I’m not the only one who has felt like that before. I just think to myself: who am I trying to impress anyway? GEEEZ. God made me in His image, therefore I am perfectly the way He wanted me, same for everyone else.

It doesn’t matter if you feel like you look like a little kid without your eyes lined or you have pimples sometimes. It’s okay, I promise.

And I don’t care if you wear makeup, TOMS, or swoon over baseball players, just do it for yourself and not anyone else.

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2 thoughts on “Barenaked Ladies

  1. “To be yourself in a society that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment.:
    -Ralph Waldo Emerson.

    Lovely post with a brilliant message, especially for us teens since we have to go through so many fickleness in our life that it becomes hard to ‘adapt’ to one trend. I’m so glad you made it through and that you are now evolving.
    I too once had self-esteem issues, although they haven’t gone away completely, but I’m way better now.
    A very relatable post. 🙂

    Although, since I believe you’re starting out, I advise you to create an ‘About’ page. That way your readers will connect with you on a more personal level. 🙂 Or if there is any About page and I can’t seem to figure out, please forgive me.

    Happy Blogging. 🙂

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    • Thank you! I have overcome a lot of insecurities and have more I’d like to tackle. We are forever learning how to accept ourselves and evolving into the people we were meant to be.

      I appreciate that tip, I do not have an About Me page as of now, but I will get to working on that!

      🙂

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